My Pride Reminds Me of Satan

JOey“Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me” (2 Corinthians 12:9).  Well, I want Christ’s power to rest on me, so here I go:

One of the things in heaven I am most looking forward to being freed from is my pride. (right up there with my fear of roaches).

I hate admitting this, but I can even have a hint/split second of regret that in heaven, I won’t stand out, be unique or anything special; like, I don’t want to lose my identity; I want to stand out and be special…some crap like that.  Obviously, I don’t want to split theological hairs here; I know that I will indeed be completed in Christ and thus more special than I’ve ever been.

Here on Earth, though, I at least have a shot at standing out and being one that people can be impressed with.  Selfish ambition and totally worthless and deadly desires? Absolutely.

I can’t wait to be freed from a sense of self.  Have I said that yet?  I can’t wait to be in heaven and truly/fully lose myself in my new identity that is directly linked to Jesus and His righteousness.

As long as I am still on Earth, I want to continually be freed from it more and God, as gracious as He is, answers this longing little by little.  However, being the dummy that I am, I still have major set-backs:

1.  ”I should have received more complements on that sermon or blog post.”

2.  ”I can’t believe ‘so and so’ doesn’t recognize how impressive I really am.  They had the nerve to doubt my decision-making? 

3.  ”I can’t believe they didn’t ask me to lead.  I’m like the bomb and can lead a group of Pittsburg Steeler fans to kiss the ground at Cowboy Stadium and worship the legacy of Emmitt Smith.”  

I’ve recognized, as much to my chagrin,  that as long as I’m here on Earth in this unredeemed body, I will always have a natural lean towards self, my importance, my way, and my desire to be esteemed.  You know who this reminds me of?  It reminds me a lot of Satan.

Satan thought more about what was important to him, his way, and he desired to be esteemed more than God.  We are so quick to say “I try to be like Jesus” and that’s great.  It’s not great, however, that we fail to realize that are natural drives are more kin to Satan’s.  Our only hope?  Realize, embrace, expose and proclaim this vice of escalating self above all other things.  It’s through our weakness and willingness to expose this sin that Christ can work through us and be glorified through our feebleness.

Last time I checked, the only thing we need to be boasting in is the cross of Jesus.  Considering “the cross of Jesus Christ” was necessary because of my sin, I don’t know what else I have to realize, embrace, expose, and proclaim.  My sin.  His greatness.  I’m the bad guy.  He’s the good guy.  I get to be represented by Him and He chooses to use me where He sees fit.  I decrease and He increases.  Amen


What about you?  Do you want to be something special or do you not care, as long as you are something that Jesus can use for His glory.

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